this computer is running really slow today.....

 

they just married dogs....... i really shouldn't watch morning television.... i think i'll just stick to the news.

 

this weekend really sucked! booty took me to buckheads friday night and that was nice but that was the only thing we did together the whole weekend..... and saturday was really really bad! saturday started off ok. i went to school to take my placement test and scored a 191 out of 200! yeah! i rock! then i went home and helped my grandma move all the stuff out of the storage unit. that stuff is all my dads stuff. i was ok moving it until.... wait wait.... ok so i was looking at some of the crap inside the boxes (cause it is all crap... i don't even know why we have it) and saying how these things need to be thrown away..... well my mother came out and yelled at me to leave that stuff alone.... and she went on saying how i had no right to sell or get ride of that stuff 'cause it wasn't mine...... excuse me. didn't you cheat on my dad, leave him, and told everyone that you hoped he would die. i don't remember me ever doing that to him..... and hmmm..... he left that stuff to me. i know that he didn't have a will but i know that he wanted me to be able to sell it so i could have some money to help with school..... not spend it on crack.

 

so needless to say i got really upset at my mother for saying that. so now that stuff is sitting outside and i hope it all gets rained on. i'm not moving it. i've already hid or sold just about everything of value. but i do believe that i've had all that i can stand. i think i'm going to get a storage unit and put all my stuff in it and start sleeping in my car. i can't afford to move anywhere so my car will be my home. i wonder how much a storage unit costs..... you know i really hate her...... i really hate her. it's so bad now that i don't even care about seeing my sister. all i want is to never see her again.... even if that means not seeing katie again. i'm furious..... i'm getting sick just thinking about that whore!......... man..... i don't like hating this much...... but she deserves it!

 

anyway yeah...... so i'm moving out..... even if i have to live in a cardboard box.... i am not staying there anymore.

 

one good thing did happen on saturday..... i am know the proud owner of a brand new pair of pink chucks!....... YES!!!! i finally found a pair in my size! it's hard to find shoes in size big as fuck so i had to buy them.... even if it only left me with $14 to my name...... money should be coming in..... i need to apply for some loans.... maybe that way i can move out and not live in my car/box..... hmmmm... and then i could pay all my bills! that'd be great! maybe i could get my aunt to co-sign for me...... yes maybe.....

 

sunday sucked too! joseph was annoying the hell out of me and then there was mother lurking around like an evil troll waitting to turn any sign of a good mood instantly into a bad one. so i went to raya and lissas place for awhile.... until i got bored of watching raya play mortal combat..... usually i'd play but raya is "mastering" the game and i'm a sore loser....... well only when raya won't let you play..... "let me try this move and let me try this"....... so i got bored and a little frustrated real quick.

 

today i downloaded a new rainbow brite screensaver..... i looked for a pirate one but it wouldn't work on this computer...... stupid work computer.... well atleast it has dsl! wow... today is the 150th anniversay of the publishing of walden's pond..... i can't say that i liked it in high school but maybe i'll re-read it.... i mean because of henry david thoreau we know have the idea of forest preservation. maybe i'll go dig up that book.....